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Htan to 2000 otan peira mia simantikh apofash na metakomisw apo tin Ellada kai na paw na vrw enan anthrwpo pou gia xronia itan ksexasmenos apo emena...enan anthrwpo pou distixws gegonota mou apagorefsan na mathw tin uparksh tou.Etsi loipon ksekinisa to makrino taksidi pros tin Amerikh na gnwrisw ton mpampa moy.perase enas xronos kai edeixnan ola teleia....magika me enan periergo tropo..otan to septevrh tou 2001 egine ena tragiko lathos...ena lathos pou gia merikous aksize alla gia merikous allous skotwse kai kserizwse mesa apo tin kardia tous oti agapousan.Nai itan tote pou 2 aeroplana epesan panw stous pyrgous sth Nea Yorkh kai enw oloi kathotan stin tv tous kai to xazevan egw vriskomoun liga xiliometra parapera kai pigena sth douleia tou mpampa....na dw to xwro pou doulevei....Ekeinh th stigmh misissa ta panta....to meros ton eafto moy,ton idio to Theo pou afise na ginei kati tetoio....girisa pisw stin Ellada me lavwmena ta ftera mou min mporontas na siniditopoihsw ti eixe ginei....Prospathontas na ksexasw anamesa se anthrwpous pou me xilious tropous moy to thimizan.Tote irthe sti zwh mou enas uperoxos anthrwpos (etsi pisteva toulaxiston mexri prosfata) kai alakse ta panta...itan ola osa eleipan apo ton eafto mou ekeinh th stigmh kai pistepsa distixws sta psemmata ths...koitazw to xtes kai vlepw 4,5 xronia sxeshs pou telika me odigisan sto misos...Misos gia enan anthrwpo pou mazi tou moirastika ta panta...

Diskolo tha poun polu alla egine...simvanta kai leptomeries den exoun simasia alla otan enas anthrwpos pou zeis ta panta mazi tou gia toso kairo kai se gnwrizei toso kala se ksexna apo th mia mera sthn allh....tote arxizeis na miseis pragmatika...Itan kalokairi otan peirame tin apofash na xwrisoume.Par'ola afta omws vriskomastan,gelousame kai klaigame parea...girisa sto Nhsaki opou megalwsa perimenontas na erthei kai afth meta apo 3 meres na eidothoume ksana.kai ksafnika....Xathike...xwris na pei tpt eksafanistike etsi apla gia na xtipisei meta apo liges meres to kinito moy kai na dw ena minima na leei...signwmh exeis dikio alla eimai kapou allou....kai na niwtheis ton kosmo olo na xanete ekeinh th stigmh katw apo ta podia sou....o kairos pernouse...Min mporontas na vrw pouthena ena stirigma,oute kan stin idia moy tin oikogeneia pou apo palia vasika itan ypo dialish strafika se alkool...strafika sto na kanw kako ston eafto moy mera para mera...misisa ola moy ta oneira..stamatisa ti douleia pou apo mikro paidi ekana kai me gemize san anthrwpo....epikoinwnisa me ena filaraki moy kai ton parakalesa na erthei ta xristougenna na kanoume giortes mazi...etsi gia na exw k egw kapoion dipla mou...na tsougkrisw ena potiri Jack Daniels...na exw kapoion na ksespasw kai na stamatisw na kanw kako ston eafto moy.....

Peire tin apofash o giwrgakis na erthei....Vriskomoun eksw ekeino to vrady otan to tilefwno mou xtipise kai apo mesa me rwtisan an eimai sigenhs tou Giwrgou...Oxi apantisa me mia pagwmenh fwnh....o kolitos tou eimai....tote moy eipan oti eixe ena troxaio....Pagwsa....emeina kolimenos ekei prospathontas gia akomh mia fora na katalavw to giati....giati aftos ekei panw na pernei oti agapaw....efyge o giwrgakis kai vriskete k aftos ekei psila na mas koitazei xamogelastos emas edw katw....tote....

Tote itan i stigmh pou pragmatika exasa olon ton kosmo...san na stamatise o xronos ekei gia mena...epapsa na pistevw se theous se thriskeies ,se agapes filies ....erwtes ....epapsa na pistevw se emena...ston eafto moy.kathe mera evriza to Theo gia oti sinevei...ton parakalousa na moy dwsei ena simadi oti me vlepei kai oti de me exei ksexasei...ksespousa panw mou kai evriska lyseis se lathos pragmata.den evlepa omws kamia antapokrish apo Afton ekei panw...

O kairos pernouse me emena na vadizw apo to kako sto xeirotero...apoksenonontas ton eafto mou apo kathe ti zwntano kai omorfo...Otan mia mera enas aggelos pou epsaxna psila ston ourano vrethike edw katw dipla mou apo to pouthena...Me ena vlemma sta matia katalava poia pragmatika einai...anoiksa to stoma moy kai milisa kai eniwsa san na tin kserw xronia...san na einai enas pragmatika dikos moy anthrwpos....sikwsa to kefali mou psila ston ourano kai Toy eipa ena megalo efxaristw.Mesa se 2 matakia eniwsa tin apoluth eftixia gia pragmatika prwth fora meta apo polla xronia....kai otan ta xeilh mas sinantithikan exasa kathe epafh me ton kosmo kai vrethika se enan allo magemeno kosmo opou eniwsa san ena mikro paidaki pou den to niazei se ti kosmo zei kai einai panta eftixismeno...dipla ths kathe moy problima fentazei toso da mikro....akougontas ti fwnoula ths einai san na akous ta poulia pou prohmnoun tin anoiksh....vlepontas ta yperoxa matakia ths niwtheis san na xanese sto aperanto galazio tou ouranou...Nai erwteftika....eixa papsei na pistevw se kati tetoio alla otan emeina monos mazi ths....otan me agaliase...eida pantou louloudia....apektisa ksana ena megalo xamogelo sto proswpo mou,arxisa na pistevw ksana kai na kanw oneira palu....kai to kalitero....eida mia antapokrish mesa se olo afto...to eniwsa opws niwthei enas stratiwths th sfaira pou diaperna th sarka tou....

Distixws omws gia akomh mia fora....palu h monaksia apodixtike kaliterh sintrofia....isws telika na einai grafto na meinw monos....me oneira mono....na zw se afton to magiko kosmo me monh sintrofia skepseis....tpt parapera...mexri ekei...isws afto na einai to mellon mou? den kserw...to thewrousa kapws diaforetiko...kai tote anarwtithika kai koitaksa ksana ekei psila anazitontas Afton....anoiksa to stoma mou kai eipa....Giati mou thn esteiles edw na me kanei kala enw den ginete na eimaste mazi?.....ena dakri kilaei sta matia mou kai anarwtieme....giati?

Einai toso omorfo na exeis ola afta mesa sou....na niwtheis ola afta kai na thes na ta vgaleis...na ta moirasteis me afth pou ksereis oti pragmatika ta aksizei...na ths prosfereis tin kardia sou aploxera kai enw ksereis oti tin thelei.....na distazei na tin parei...

tha stamatisw edw tis skepseis mou gia apopse....