A Place that stands into my broken heart

ena apo ta merh pou latrepsa kai misisa oso tpt ston kosmo...ena meros pou rizwse vathia mesa stin kardia mou kai simadepse gia panta th zwh mou.ypirxan polles anifores kai ena polu varh fortio pou panta kouvalousa mi mporontas na to anteksw allo.girizw pisw kai vlepw anthrwpous pou irthan kai efugan apo th zwh mou....afinontas mou empeiries,sinaisthimata,anamniseis anthrwpous pou allous tous gnwrisa kai allous apla tous sinantisa kai den katalava pote poioi itan pragmatika.oso pisw kai an koitaksw osous anthrwpous kai na skeftw pou perasan apo th zwh mou kai niastikan gia mena pragmatika...vlepw oti oloi tous efugan...alloi efugan se ena pio makrino taksidi kai alloi apla...apla ksexasan...isws antamwsoume ksana egw kai oloi aftoi...pios kserei pws ta fernei h zwh. skeftomai...pws mporeis na ksexaseis....? pws mporeis na min stenoxwriese otan geniese kai zeis th dystixia mesa se olo ths to megaleio? apla den mporeis...mporeis apla na prospoihtheis oti ola pane kala kai na gineis enas pseftikos anthrwpos pou einai kala mono kai mono gia na apofigei kouventes kai sizitiseis...kleinese ston eafto sou kai den empistevese tpt kai kanenan...paveis na pisteveis sta sinaisthimata pou kapoioi sou eklepsan,paveis na oneirevese kai na elpizeis gia kati to kalutero...paveis na pisteveis sti megalopsixia kai se oti pisteves kai prospatheis na vreis ta komatia sou ena ena oxi gia na ta enwseis....alla gia na ta skorpiseis stis akres tou mialou sou.koitaza apo mikros girw mou kai evlepa oikogeneies....demenes....agapimenes...kati pou egw pote den eixa kai pote de gnwrisa sth zwh mou...par'ola afta omws kati fwnakse mesa mou kai den to evala pote katw.prospathisa polles fores na ginw kati pou den eimai...me apotelesma....na kanw kako ston eafto mou mono kai mono gia na min kanw kako stous gurw mou.
Se afth thn anufora tis zwhs mou to varh fortio pou koubalousa kapou me plakwse...perasan poloi apo dipla mou alla kaneis de me voithise na sikwthw...exw filous eklektous pou tous exw vatheia mesa stin kardia mou kai den prokeite na tous vgalw pote apo ekei alla kai palu...distixws oute aftoi den mporousan na me voithisoun na stathw sta podia mou....tote einai pou eipa ta parataw...tote skeftika oti den sinaixizw allo...poios o logos....enas ksenos anthrwpos stamatise ekei pou stekomoun kai mou aplwse to xeri...mou eipe mi fovase pia egw eimai edw...tote anoiksa ta matia mou....apo thn prwth stigmh kati mas edese....koitousa sta matia ths kai itan san na vlepw ekeino ton eafto pou eixa ksexasei kapou.itan sa na vlepw emena se....se genos thilikou...kai lew opa A... edw eisai.
Otan ola mou pigainan strava...den ithela na gnwrisw kosmo...den ithela na anoixtw se anthrwpous...oute kan stin katestramenh oikogeneia mou...den ithela kanenan.kai omws...apo tin prwth stigmh pou AFTH kai to afth me kefalaia giati etsi prepei...apo tin prwth stigmh loipon pou afth mpike stin pikrh kai apelpismenh zwh mou apo tin prwth kiolas mera eniwsa san na tin iksera panta.Htan kai akoma einai to pio periergo pragma pou exw niwsei pote mou.Me ton kairo kai kathws pernousan oi meres evlepa olo kai perisotera koina anamesa mas...kapoies fores simptwseis pou mas odigousan kai tous 2 sto idio pragma...isws kai na min itan simptwseis...isws omws kai na itan...vrike opws ksanapa se ena allo mou post to magiko tropo na kanei ola mou ta problimata na miazoun mikra...kathe fora pou vriskomoun mazi ths....pou apla milousa sto tilefwno mazi ths skeftomoun mono ekeinh kai poso omorfo einai olo afto.tyflwthika kai afisa ton eafto mou na afethei se afto pou panta ithela....afto pou panta anazitousa...thn eftixia...eftixia pou mou edwse mia ksenh mexri tote gia mena...Yparxoun logia pou distixws den upothikan pote apo fovo mipws tin xasw...opws episeis kai aisthimata pou de vgikan apo mesa mou akoma.yparxoun omws kai skepseis...prakseis...logia kai sinaisthimata pou vgikan...otan filithikame gia prwth fora...enoiwsa...enoiwsa san na itan pragmatika h prwth fora pou filisa kopela sth zwh mou...To teleio sinaisthima....
Ta panta mesa mou trelathikan...eniwsa ola osa sterithika kai to kalutero apo ola itan kai einai oti afto to ksexwristo atomo pou erwteftika me olh th dinamh tis kardias mou...to thewrousa kai filh mou...afto itan to pio simantiko apo ola...eginan diafora apo tote omws kai oles aftes oi wrees stigmes pou ezisa mazi ths den uparxoun pia para mono stis skepseis mou kai mesa se kapoia oneira mou.Eginan polla kai skeftika oti to kalutero pou eixa na kanw itan na girisw tin plath mou kai na fugw makria...afinontas pisw tous filous mou...th dialimenh oikogeneia mou kai ena meros gemato zwh apo ta paidika mou xronia.na figw kai na paw makria se ena allo meros gemato anamniseis....ma to kiriotero kai simantikotero apo ola...na fygw makria apo AFTHN...tromaksa sti skepsh oti den tha tin ksanadw.pernousan oi meres pou eleipe kai to mono pou skeftomoun olh mera htan afth...eginan kapoia pragmata tis meres pou eleipe les kai to ithele h moira na simvoun ti stigmh pou den tha tin exw dipla mou...tote apofasisa na min figw giati eida poso polu anagh exw afto ton anthrwpo sti zwh mou...distixws oxi etsi opws ton thelw egw...alla gia mena einai ontws ta panta...skeftika na meinw lipon edw...kai fortosa ksana to fortio mou stis plates kai prospathw na anevw afth thn ateleiwth anifora...
Pernousan oi meres kai anoipwmonousa na erthei na tin dw...na thn parw mia agalia kai na tis pw apla poso mou eleipse....na koitaksw ekeina ta uperoxa matakia ths kai na xathw ekei sto diko mou oneiro.Itan omws ena oneiro...girise kai xathikame...spania milame...spania vlepomaste...kai oso paei ginete olo kai xeirotero...kai menw ksana edw....prospathontas gia akomh mia fora...oxi na mazepsw ta komatia mou...afto itan douleia dikia ths. menw edw na ta skorpw apo dw kai apo kei..tha stamatisw na grafw edw...sto epanhdhn filoi mou

the meaning

mesa ston kosmo,apopse tha ksaplwsw.
skies kai oneira apopse tha prodwsw,.
oneira pou ekana gia sena kai gia mena,
oneira pou efigan kai meinan ksexasmena....
s'etouto to nisi sti skepsh sou epanw...
pws na zisw twra pia,logo psaxnw na pethanw...
eisoun esy pou mou'dwses t'asteria
mesa apo oneira kai matwmena xeria
isoun esy, to fws sto oneiro mou
h pio glikia h skepsh mou kai oti eniwsa diko mou...
irthes apopse na fwtiseis th vradia mou
me to xamogelo sou,fws ginikes mesa sta oneira mou
se oti apopse ponesa kai oti me pligwnei...
eisai h skepsh mesa moy kai oti tha me swnei...
mi me afineis...mi me koitas san kseno....
apopse palu ginomai...poulaki lavwmeno,....
oti agapisa kai oti tha prosmenw...
eisai esu h hliaxtida mou kai osa perimenw....
twra ksexases...poios eimouna gia sena
se skepseis mplextikes..se logia pikramena
logia pou anamesa mas mpikan
kai tipota den alazei
logia pou skepseis perasan twra pou xarazei...
psefths den eimouna...kai pseftis de tha ginw
oneira ekana...egw mazi sou apopse svinw...
afta pou thelw apopse na kratiseis...
tha'nai dio lekseis na sou thimizoun na mi ligiseis
giati egw tha vriskomai panta sto plevro sou
na eimai kapou ekei konta o filakas o aggelos sou

Standing here alone....afraid again in the cold dark night

Oti aksizei ponaei kai einai diskolo...eipe enas megalos kalitexnis kai twra katalavenw pragmatika ti enwouse..edw kai arketes meres anarwtieme giati afth h magikh dinamh pou mas efere konta mas krataei xwria? giati enw kathe fora pou eimai mazi ths niwthw gematos san anthrwpos kai den mporw na tis to deiksw me ton tropo pou thelw? giati ena vlemma ths arkei na gemisei me fws ta matia mou kai panta amesws meta vithizomai palu mesa sto skotadi? Kapote o mpampas mou,mou eipe pws mesa apo ena mikro tipota geniete ena polu megalo kati...twra katalava ti enwouse k aftos...niwthw merikes fores oti vriskomai stin paraligo eftixia....paraligo na eimastan mazi....paraligo na poume poso anagh exoume o enas ton allo....kai oi logoi pou mas theloun xwrista einai afantoi...Anarwtieme mipws telika einai alitheia pou lene oti mia mono fora erwtevese kai agapas pragmatika.ti noima omws exei na zeis to metrio otan den exeis afth thn mia?Distixws etsi einai h zwh h mallon....etsi einai h pragmatikh agaph...einai taftoxrona omws kai to wraiotero sinaisthima pou exw mesa mou....einai o logos pou kanei tin kardia mou na xtupa dinata...kathomai olh mera perimenontas na akousw to tilefwno mou na xtupa apo ena minima ths...tha kleisw me ena tragoudi pou latrevw...ena mallon apo ta polla pou latrevw....

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

tha afina ta panta gia na se kratisw.
giati kserw oti me niwtheis me ena periergo tropo
eisai pio konta ston paradeiso ap'oti egw tha vrethw pote
kai de thelw na paw spiti apopse.
kai ola osa mporw na geftw einai afth h stigmh.
kai ola osa mporoun na mou dwsoun anasa einai h zwh sou.
giati sintoma h arga ola tha teleiwsoun
de thelw me tpt na mou leipseis apopse
kai de thelw o kosmos na me dei
giati den nomizw oti tha mporesoun na katalavoun
giati ola einai ftiagmena gia na xalane
to mono pou thelw einai na ksereis pios pragmatika eimai...

H Megalh apofash....

kalispera kai palu...tha ksekinisw kapws diaforetika simera....tha epefthinthw kateftheian ston anthrwpo mou elpizwntas kapoia mera na dei ola afta kai katalavei ti pragmatika einai gia mena :/

sta 26 mou xronia gnwrisa pollous anthrwpous sinantisa akoma perisoterous me to perasma tou xronou...an omws girisw to xrono pisw kai prospathisw na thimithw...ligoi sxedon kaneis einai aftoi pou pragmatika me agapisan.kai an dialeksw me tin kardia mou isws telika antikrisw mono ENAN.nai nai...mono enan pou mpike prosfata sth zwh mou.einai aftos o anthrwpos pou me dextike opws akrivws eimoun...o anthrwpos pou kathe stigmh pou vriskomai konta tou de xreiazete na prospoioume....na koroidevw kai na fenomai pseftikos...pou konta tou den xreiazete na prosexw....Mporw na tin koitazw sta matia...na lew ti skeftomai kai ekeinh na katalavenei ta panta gia mena...xreiazete mia aplh gkrimatsa...mia alagh ston hxo ths fwnhs mou....mia adeksia kinish ....gia na katalavei oti kati simvenei....Me katalave....otan kai egw o idios den mporousa na katalavw ton idio mou ton eafto....xreiastike ena vlemma mesa sta matia mou gia na katalavei kai na niwsei afto pou niwthw...kai olo afto gemise tin kardia mou ena swro sinaisthimata....tin ekane na xtipa dinata parea me ton diko ths xtupo....isws telika afth nai einai kai h simasia...h glikia gefsh ths agaphs....eimai sigouros oti mazi ths mporw na kanw kai na zisw pragmatika ta panta....ta panta.....megalh leksh alla nai eimai sigouros pleon.
Mazi mporoume na gelame wres ateleiwtes me mikra xaza asteiakia...na milame gia tis zwes mas kai gia ta pio trela mas oneira....na leme ta pio kryfa mas mystika.....vrike kai exei pleon ena magiko tropo na alazei th zwh mou...vrike ton tropo na kanei tis stenoxwries mou na fenontai toso da mikres...ton tropo na mi skeftomai oti me pona kai me pligwnei....kai na eimai san ena mikro xazo paidaki pou den kserei se ti kosmo zei kai einai panta eftixismeno...me ola ta parapanw den perigrafw tin mitera mou...den perigrafw ton eafto mou...alla esena pou isws diavazeis afto to minima...tha kleisw kapou edw legontas oti de s'agapw mono gia afto pou eisai....alla kai gi'afto pou me kaneis na eimai kathe stigmh pou vriskomai mazi sou.

s'agapw.

A Song writen for her.

s'ena xartaki panw apopse akoumpaw
me dakria kai skepseis anamniseis na metraw
esena na skeftomai me mia zesth agalia
thimame tote pou me kratouses ekei sfixta.
ta dakria mou na ksexnaw tis kries nyxtes pou elega pou na paw
eisoun ekei gia mena ta panta itan alitheia
eisoun xamogelo kai agaph mes sta stithia
agaph pou megalwne me kathe koitagma sou
agaph pou me emathe na zw ksana konta sou

oi meres perasan kai xathikan t'asteria
irthe h wra na se piasw apo ta xeria.
ta matia sou gia na koitaksw mipws mporesw kai allaksw
afto pou pleon mas xwrizei kai xanete h skepsh mou pou kai mia kardia dakrizei
blepw ta suneffa psila ston ourano na pernoun ti morfh sou
blepw ta kummata sti thalassa na hxoun me ton hxo ths fwnhs sou
monos na menw kapou ekei skiftos n'anarwtieme giati eimai palu monaxos.
oi meres perasan kai xathikan t'asteria
irthe h wra na se piasw palu apo ta xeria
Mazi gia na petaksoume se merh makrina
prin mas vrei to diskolo avrio kai einai palu arga.
tha'mai konta sou agaph mou se kathe pesimo sou
na se kratw sfixta se kathe pono kai na diwxnw ton kahmo sou
tha'mai skia ekei na se krataw.me s'agapw kai agalies pantou opou kai an paw


afto pou niwthw einai polu megalo.dio logia prospathw na vrw ma pws na to vgalw.
exei rizwsei mesa mou kai einai krimeno kala.mono mazi sou eniwsa...agaphsa alithina...


P.S. einai kati pou egrapsa gia enan ksexwristo anthrwpo...avrio...einai h teleftaia fora pou tha dw to uperoxo proswpo ths kai h teleftaia fora pou tha xamogelasw apo to xamogelo ths....den kserw akoma kai twra amfivalw gia to an kanw to swsto...eno de tha eprepe na skeftomai...den stamatw na to kanw...de skeftomai poso kalo einai na fugw alla poso kako einai na fygw makria apo afthn...afthn pou agapw.....den kserw....elpizw oi skepseis kai h kouventa pou tha kanw me tous dikous mou anthrwpous na me odigisoun pleon kapou pou tha vrw th galhnh....oloi oi dromoi mexri stigmhs me odigoun stin agalia ths...agalia pou distixws den mporw na exw
ti na kanw? esy ekei psila pou mas vlepeis emas edw katw.....dwse mou ena simadi....voithise me na parw mia apofash....den me noiazei pia swsth h lathos....einai h monh fora pou pragmatika kserw ti thelw apo kai sth zwh mou....peira dinamh apo afthn kai niwthw na tin xanw....anyway.....den kserw.......

When You Lose Yourself Inside Pictures

kalispera ksana filoi moy.Savvato simera kai oi meres pleon exoun arxisei na metrane antistrofa....10 meres emeinan peripou na zisw edw sto meros opou megalwsa....agapisa...agapithika kai oneireftika.Kati ponaei mesa mou kathos o kairos plisiazei...kati pou de mporw na eksigisw...grafw ksana edw akougontas tous ixous apo to agapimeno mou tragoudi....all my bags i've packed i'm ready to go...i'm standing here outside your door...i don't want to wake you up to say goodbye....so kiss me and smile for me....let me know that you'll wait for me...hold me like you never let me go....couse i'm leaving on a jet plane...i don't know if i'll be back again.....kai tote erxete sto mialo mou ena allo tragoudi pou mesa apo tous stixous tou kati zwntanepse mesa mou...ena tragoudi pou mou edwse ftera....

i don't want to close my eyes...i dont wanna fall asleep couse i miss you baby and i dont want to miss a thing....

einai pragmatika panemorfo....sinantithika proxtes me afton to diko mou anthrwpo...ithela gia teleftaia fora na dw to proswpaki ths na me koita mesa sta matia kai na min vriskw logia na pw...giati kathe fora na simvenei to idio pragma...na mi mporw na pw pragmatika afto pou thelw?na min mporw na kanw afto pou thelw?kai afth h aporia menei mesa mou na planate xwris na katalavenw apla to giati....eipa mia megalh kouventa ekei proxtes...kouventa pou mexri simera thn eixa pei mono se enan anthrwpo.oute kan stin idia mou th mhtera den tin lew pia...me tromaze kai mono h skepsh afths ths kouventas...me fovize afantasta to ti mporei na simenei...skeftomoun kai skeftomoun na to pw mexri pou vgike apo to stomma mou afthormita apo monh ths...einai h 1h fora sti zwh mou pou vgike xwris na xreiastei na thn akousw apo kapoion allo na mou th leei....einai asteio vevaia giati den peira apanthsh alla den me eniakse pragmatika....kserw oti afto pou niwthw einai polu megalo kai aksizei...isws o anthrwpos mou na min einai mazi mou....isws h moira opws thelise na mas enwsei etsi na thelei na mas xwrisei...me ton idio tropo...den peirazei omws...eixa thn efkairia na zisw....eixa thn efkairia na niwsw....na niwsw kai na agaphsw pragmatika me olo mou to einai.

"agaph" mia leksh pou spania sinantas...mia leksh pou mesa se 5 grammata krivei ta megalitera sinaisthimata pou exei gnwrisei h anthrwpotita se olh thn istoria ths.mia leksh pou otan ftaneis sto seimio na tin peis se kapoion....ta panta pernane mprosta apo ta matia sou...vlepeis olh sou ti zwh ekei na perna mprosta apo ta matia sou kai vlepeis poso uperoxo einai to na zeis...na anapneeis...kai panw apo ola...vlepeis poso yperoxo einai na exeis ton katalhlo anthrwpo apenanti sou gia na tin peis....pragmatika den perimena pote afth h mikrh leksh na krivei tosa polla...pia einai omws h pragmatikh ths simasia? oso kai na psaksei kaneis pragmatika tha vrei ekatomirria diaforetikes eksigiseis....kai afto mias kai gia kapoius einai kati diaforetiko se sxesh me kapoious allous....an me rwtisete ti simenei "agaph" gia mena....tha sas pw apla....agaph einai na xamogelas otan xamogelaei...na klais se kathe ths dakri na ponas otan ponaei...agaph einai to oneiro enos tyflou na vrei ksana to fws tou...agaph einai o hxos otan akougete ksana sta aftia enos koufou....agaph einai h anasa pou pernei ena pethameno kormi ksepsixontas...agaph einai...na oneirevese....na elpizeis....agaph einai....ta dio ths matia....agaph einai ta ksantha ths ta malia...agaph einai to na koitas ton allon sta matia kai na niwtheis afto pou niwthei ekeinh th stigmh...agaph einai ena onoma pou tuxainei na einai kai mia polu ma polu megalh leksh :) She knows...

yparxei kai mia allh omws ekdoxh ths "agaphs" agaph einai na ksexniese apo aftous pou se agapane kai na pligwnese apo aftous pou kapote edeines ta panta...Tears Of Life einai h onomasia aftou tou blog mias kai olh mou h zwh htan gemath dakria....

Yparxei afth th stigmh omws enas anthrwpos pou tha ekana kai tha thisiaza ta panta gi'afton...ta panta...me olh thn enoia ths lekshs.mesa sthn kouventa pou eixame tin rwtisa an thelei na fygw..."oxi" itan h apanthsh pou peira kai isws itan h monadikh alithinh apantish pou exw parei edw kai para polu kairo...den kserw....exw akoma na skeftw polla kai na milisw me pollous.....tha stamatisw na grafw edw kai tha sinaixisw to dromo twn skepsewn mou plai plai me tis dikes ths....

When loneliness taking your dreams away

hi to everyone....na'mai palu na grafw....einai krima na min exw pou na ta pw kai apla na prospathw mesa apo edw na ta moirastw me kapoion....:( athetisa mia iposxesh pou edwsa apopse kai kontevw na skasw...niwthw ti monaksia na me pnigei apopse kai den mporw na ksefigw apo afthn...anoigw to parathiro mou kai psaxnw psila ston ourano ton mpampa mou...to filaraki mou to giwrgo kai den tous vriskw pouthena....ti emeina egw edw pera monos mou na kanw?se poion na milisw kai ti na pw? niwthw ta panta na xanontai katw apo ta podia mou.apelpisia einai h monh leksh pou mporw na dwsw afth th stigmh sta sinaisthimata mou....apelpisia...thlipsh....egatalipsh....monaksia...pragmata pou panta fovomoun erxontai ksana na stixiwsoun tis kries pleon nixtes moy.tha to kseperasw?de nomizw.einai polu diskolo...egataleipw edw.xwris na mporw na polemisw allo pia...katathetw ta opla...mou peiran ta panta apo th zwh mou...mou prosferan kainourgia pragmata kai m ta peiran kai afta....fevgw makria loipon na min enoxlw kanenan.einai ena minima apelpisias alla vlepw oti den pigainei allo...den antexw apla...gonatisa kiriolektika san anthrwpos.fevgw gia ena meros pou misw alla taftoxrona tha vrw dikous mou anthrwpous....isws dw ksana to mpampa mou na mou xamogela....kai kathws grafw....exw anoiksei tin tv....kai pezei to i dont want to miss a thing twn aerosmith....entelws tixaia 4 to prwi thimithikan ena tragoudi pou psithirisa se enan anthrwpo pou latrevw...simptwseis h simadia..? alitheia h psemmata?opws kai na exei...oi dikes mou oi meres edw se afto to nisaki ftanoun sto telos tous.ezisa ta panta edw alla exasa kai ta panta.opws ksekinisa monos mou ena diskolo taksidi etsi monos mou tha to teleiwsw.De tha ksexasw pote aftous kai aftes pou stathikan pragmatika dipla mou...itan poloi ligoi kai liges...sigekrimena.....1.....eide pios pragmatika eimoun kai pistepse se emena...alla apo oti fenete de mporw egw na pistepsw ston eafto mou...vlepw pleon oti den vriskw kanena ma kanena noima otan den exw ton anthrwpo mou dipla mou.

Mou leipoun...kathe mera olo kai pio polu....o mpampas mou....o filos mou...mou leipei mia agalia...mia simvoulh pou tha mou edeine kapoios pou ezise parapanw pragmata apo emena...mia kouventa mou leipei....se pion na ta pw kai poios na me akousei? fantazoun ola san ena paramithi h san enan efialti pou epitelous eftase sto telos tou.niwthw ton eafto mou na xanete kai na fevgei makria....den vlepw tpt pou mporei na me kratisei...thelw na pw se aftous pou agapisa...."THA EIMAI PANTA EDW NA SAS PROSEXW" thelw na pw stous exthrous mou...."den peirazei...isws eimaste filoi se enan kalitero kosmo" thelw na pw stous filous mou...."min anoisixite...tha eimai dipla sas se oti kai na simvei..." kai telos...thelw na pw ston anthrwpo pou eftasa na agapw pio polu kai apo emena...."xexe lol" (she knows).se afto ton anthrwpo den exw na prosferw para mono ena xamogelo...ena alithino xamogelo....

take good care all....cu

Tears and more Tears

Kalispera...Oi meres pernan grigora kai plisiazei h stigmh pou prepei na parw ti megalh apofash....na fygw makria apo olous kai ola stin prospatheia na vrw ti galhnh mesa mou pou toso anagh exw h na meinw edw kai na palepsw...H zwh me emathe na min to vazw pote sta podia...ws pote omws...?Vithizomai kathe mera mesa se skepseis pou den mporw oute na eksigisw oute kan na katalavw...apo ti mia oloi oi dromoi me odigoun pros tin agalia enos anthrwpou....apo tin allh aftos o anthrwpos niwthw siga siga na me kanei pera kai tote erxontai sto mialo mou anamniseis...anamniseis pou me kanoun na xamogelaw...na pistevw,na elpizw oti nai yparxei xara kai eftixia se afton ton kosmo pou de zitisa na me feroun.geniomaste kai uparxoume se afton ton kosmo gia kapoio skopo.kanoume oneira kai prospathoume na kanoume oti kalitero gia na kataferoume to pan kai to kalitero.egw vrika gia pio skopo irtha edw...vrika ta oneira mou kai to kalitero gia emena.Na fygw makria apo afto h na meinw edw kai na palepsw?Eilikrina den kserw...exw filarakia pou ta latrevw kai tha ekana ta panta gi'aftous...ta panta...eidika gia 1.kserw oti me tin fygh mou tha tin pligwsw kai einai kati pou me diskolevei sto na parw mia ksekatharh apofash.

exw dei kai exw zisei arketa pragmata se afto to makrino taksidi pou vadizw panw sth gh.afth th stigmh gia ena pragma eimai sigouros....mesa se ola afta ta monopatia twn skepsewn mou...mesa stis epiloges pou mou dinontai....oloi oi dromoi odhgoun se enan anthrwpo...se enan anthrwpo pou katafere na alaksei olo mou to einai...otan zeis kapoia diskola pragmata pou se stigmatizoun gia mia oloklirh zwh einai polu diskolo meta na kaneis oneira kai na pisteveis kapou...poso mallon na detheis pragmatika kai na empistefteis kapoion...Den perimena pote na ksanakanw filous mono kai mono giati eniwtha oti den tous xreiazomoun...kai omws ekana....kai tous latrevw olous tous.Den perimena pote oti tha niwsw ksana xaroumenos kai tha mou vgei ena alithino xamogelo ksana....kai omws....egine kai afto...Tyxainei afth pou trella erwteftika kai agapaw na tin niwthw kai san tin kaliterh mou filh...einai diskolo afto alla einai kai o logos pou mas kratise konta.einai o logos pou pragmatika gnwrisame o enas ton allo....arkei ena koitagma sta matia ths gia na dw vatheia mesa stin psixh ths....arkei ena koitagma gia na katalavw ti kai pws niwthei....vlepw ta matia ths kai xanomai se ena kosmo pou itan ksexasmenos gia mena....

Aksizei loipon na paratisw olo afto to sinaisthima kai na fygw?nomizw pws oxi....kserw omws oti oso eimai edw tha mou ginete pio diskolo mera me ti mera...Giati na uparxoun sinaisthimata kai apo tis 2 plevres pistevw kai omws na iparxei kai mia dinamh pou na mas krata xwrista...pios o logos pou niwsame toso konta o enas ston allo otan den ginete na eimaste mazi?ta panta ginontai gia kapoio logo...meta apo olh afth th distixia de nomizw Aftos ekei panw na mou esteile enan aggelo mono kai mono gia na niwsw kati kai meta na mou ton parei makria....kai tote xanomai ksana mesa se skepseis kai fantasiwseis...."ena aggigma.....ena xadi.....kai h ateleiwth tryferotita se olo tis to megaleio pou de gnwrisa pote".....afto einai to elaxisto pou niwthw dipla ths...tosa polla kai toso omorfa sinaisthimata pou den eniwsa pote mou vgenoun twra ola mazi min mporwntas na ta elenksw..min mporwntas na ta sigratisw...alla gi'afto den yparxoun ta sinaisthimata?mesa apo thn anassa ths anasainw k egw....oso POLY kai an akougete einai h alitheia...skeftomai oi den tha tin ksanadw kai pagwnei h anassa mou kai niwthw tin kardia mou na ginete komatia...oso gia tous filous mou...kserw polu kala pws oso makria kai na figw....tha iparxoun panta dipla mou...oso gi'afthn....exw kati diko ths mesa mou pou mou dinei zwh....exw mia kardia pou pleon tis anikei me olh thn enoia...tin niwthw kathe mera dipla mou...niwthw to agigma ths opou kai an stathw...akouw ti fwnh ths na mou milaei gluka....mipws zw mia psevdesthish?an nai as me ksipnisei kapoios...h afiste me na oneirevomai alla min pezete me ta oneira mou....afiste na ta zisw opws thelw egw....:( ena dakri kilaei apo ta matia mou....kai pnigomai me ti skepsh ths....merikes fores apo xara kai merikes alles apo thlipsh...

afta pros to paron.xamogela pou pantote ein'alithina...diatheseis pou den krivoun mistika...kai kapoies dakrismenes xeimwniatikes vradies...apo ekeines pou oneirevese kai klais....axx poso polu thn exw anagh....oute o Theos den kserei....

Why so much pain around me?

Geia sas filoi moy.edw eimai palu ksexasmenos apo osa den perimenw na ksexastw...kleismenos mesa se 4 toixous min mporwntas na ksefigw na anoiksw ta ftera mou na petaksw.anarwtieme ksana kai ksana tis teleftaies meres ti na kanw...giati emeina palu edw me skepseis pou ekana ta panta na tis afisw pisw mou.

Einai polu diskolo na stekese dipla apo afton pou agapas min mporwntas na kaneis kati...apla na stekese ekei kai na min mporeis na peis tpt...kathe fora pou antamwnoume tremoun ta podia moy kai h kardia mou xtipa dinata.Ena panemorfo sinaisthima pou h aporipsh distixws se kanei na dakrizeis kai na skeftese...na skeftese pragmata pou de thes...pragmata pou se exoun pligwsei kai sinaixizoun na se pligwnoun mera me ti mera...Pistepsa pws osa eixa afisei tosa xronia pisw moy kapoia stigmh tha mporesw na ta dwsw aploxera se enan monadiko anthrwpo alla ekana lathos...otan kapoios se kanei na xamogelas...kai de milame na gelaseis apla gia na deikseis oti eisai kala...milame gia pragmatiko xamogelo...zwgrafismeno ekei sto proswpo sou kathe wra kai stigmh...otan loipon kapoios to katafernei afto...tote eisai etoimos na tou dwseis ta panta...egine h moussa mou kai me ekane na grapsw tragoudia xaroumena...egine o fylakas aggelos mou kai me ekane na koimame isixos ta vradia...egine to fws se ena skoteino kai apelpismeno kosmo...pws na afiseis enan tetoio anthrwpo na sou fygei? xreiazete na palepseis gi'afton h apla prospatheis na mazepseis ksana ta komatia sou kai na sinaixiseis?pws na ksexasw ti zesth agalia ths?pws na ksexasw ta yperoxa matia ths kai na kanw san na mi sinevei tpt? oxi den mporw na ksexasw....oti aksizei ponaei kai einai diskolo eipan kapote oi PIX LAX kai twra pragmatika katalavainw olh thn enoia aftou tou tragoudiou....ena dakru kila apo ta matia mou kathws grafw kserwntas oti einai apo xara kai apo thlipsh mazi...

akouw th vroxh,gia sena mou milaei.
pws xanese tis nyxtes kapou sto pouthena
ekei pou de milame,gi'agapes matwmenes
kai to fegari xanete mes sthn sinefia
ma de mporw,n'agiksw ta oneira sou
me ti siwph mou xilies lekseis na sou pw
otan o hlios tha papsei n'anatelei....isws tote na papsw na sou lew s'agapw
perpatas sta synnefa mazi me tous aggelous
kai sou xarizw tis agaphs ta ftera
t'asteria twra svisane tha feksei opou na'nai
ksimerwnei t'oneiro mou kai fevgeis makria
ma de mporw n'agiksw ta oneira sou.....
me ti siwph mou xilies lekseis na sou pw
otan o ilios tha papsei n'anetelei isws tote na papsw na sou lew s'agapw
thelw na kanw...ton pono sou tragoudi
na t'akous otan klais kamia fora....
gia na diwxnei h mousikh ta dakria sou
kai me ta logia mou na fevgei h monaksia
Ma de mporw n'agiksw ta oneira sou..........Otan o ilos tha papsei n'anatelei....


Ena tragoudi pou graftike plimirismeno me dakria simera apokta mia allh simasia gia mena...simera afto to tragoudi geniete ksana mesa mou mazi me mia pragmatikh agaph pou omoia ths sta 26 mou xronia den exw ksanazisei....kai oute thelw na zisw ksana....kapou edw tha stamatisw kai simera na grafw.....eis to epanidin

Back To Our Broken Heart

Kalimera....kontevei 6 to prwi kai akomh mia nyxta fantazei adeia....akomh mia nyxta pou ksipnios perimenw pws kai pws na perasei monos opws panta...prin ligo katalava oti ola teleiwsan,mazi me afto omws katalava pragmatika ti simenei aftos o anthrwpos gia mena...
Prospathw na stamatisw na skeftomai...na stamatisw na oneiropolw kai na thimame kapoies mikres alla simantikes gia mena anamniseis....anamniseis pou alaksan gia panta ta pistevw mou."aftes tis leptomeries agaphsa se esena" pou eipe kai o Ploutarxos....erwteftika kai agapisa ton tropo pou xamogela....to pws kokinizei otan tin peirazeis....3 diaforetikes alla panta uperoxes gkrimatses pou kanei otan vriskete se amixania....ton tropo me ton opoio koimate.....leptomeries pou kanoun ton kosmo mou na miazei magikos...

Isws einai grafto apo ti moira na min gnwrisw tin eftixia....h otan ti gnwrisw na fygei makria kathe fora me paraksenous tropous.O erwtas dinei zwh,xara,eftixia kai se gemizei oneira kai elpides gia mia kaliterh mera....gia ena pio omorfo avrio....einai omws kai afto pou sou kovei ta ftera otan petas psila kai se kanei na pefteis apotwma sth gh...einai kai afto pou se kanei na dakrizeis kai na thimase....na thimase stigmes pou karfwthikan gia panta mesa sou....Skeftika na fygw makria apo ena meros pou mou thimizei afth...na fugw makria ksana mono kai mono gia na min tin pligwnoun osa lew alla ta panta me odigoun edw ksana....mesa se ena kosmo pou gnwrisa sthn agalia ths...

Pws na fugw kai na afisw,na ksexasw kai na min ksanadw to yperoxo xamogelo ths?
Pws na fugw kai na ksexasw ekeino to athwo vlemataki apo ta matia ths pou koitaze mesa sthn psixh mou?Itan afto to vlemataki apo to glika matakia ths pou me ekane na ksexasw ta panta kai na zisw se enan paramithenio kosmo opou tpt den exei simasia kai ta panta miazoun teleia....
Skeftomai oti den tha tin agaliasw ksana kai niwthw tin kardia mou na tremei....Skeftomai oti den tha tin antikrisw ksana kai aftos o magikos kosmos pou mazi xtisame ginete xilia komatia....einai kati pou den antexw....kai omws simvenei....kai ti den tha edina gia na eimoun mazi ths....ti de tha edina na stamatousa to xrono ena krio brady pou evrexe kai eniwsa tin anasa ths kathws koimotan plai mou....Pws na ta ksexaseis ola afta? mikra pragmata kai leptomeries pou gemisan tin kardia mou louloudia....pws na ta ksexaseis kai na ta afiseis stin akrh...?yparxei tropos?an kapoios pote ton vrei edw eimai na ton akousw.

Mia nyxta na zousa mazi ths san ekeinh kai meta as teleiwne o xronos kai as vradiaze palu kai na me evriske ksana h monaksia pnigmeno mesa se dakria...Mia agalia ths na eixa ksana kai as esvine o kosmos olos girw mou kai mazi k egw....Mia glukia kouventa apo ta xeilh ths ustera as pethena....Ena oligolepto taksidaki mesa se afton to magiko kosmo tha arkouse na me kratisei zwntano alla distixws ola pia perasan.Mia agalia gia na niwsw ksana ti zestasia opws me krataei...ti sigouria pou ediwkse ti monaksia mou...ena tis xadi kai mia matia me to athwo vlema ths kai meta na parakalesw to Theo na mi me ksipnisei apo to oneiro pou zw...Kai ftanw telos sto simeio na anarwtieme....PWS NA ZHSW XWRIS AFTH?........den kserw distixws...ena pragma omws kserw kai eimai sigouros kai kapou edw tha sas kalhnixtisw......she's THE ONE.....

If Tomorrow Never Comes

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way
To show her every day
That she's my only one
If my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes.

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance
To tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way
To show her every day
That she's my only one
If my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

Ena tragoudi pou pragmatika ekfrazei oti pramgatika niwthw....

Tears That Become Joy

na'mai palu edw na grafw....sas dihgithika mia mikrh istoria kai twra eftase h seira na dihgithw tin istoria mias matwmenhs kardias....

Den perimena pote na niwsw kai na pw ti leksh s'agapw se kapoion meta apo ola afta pou sinevisan....Se enan diskolo kai matwmeno,enan gemato psemata kosmo xreiastike mia matia kai ena xadi gia na alaksei ola moy ta pistevw...mia matia gia na kanei tin kardia moy na xtipisei ksana dinata.Na tin kanei na fterougisei.Otan pragmatika vriskeis afto pou psaxneis...otan vriskeis ton eafto sou se enan allo anthrwpo tote ksexnas ta panta...zeis gi'afto ton allo anthrwpo.Poloi tha nomizoun oti einai megala logia alla otan erwtevese kai pernas kai sto stadio na peis de mporw xwris afton....ta logia ginontai sinaisthimata kai ta sinaisthimata dakria....dakria pou kilane sta matia sou sth skepsh oti den eisai me afton pou isws einai grafto na eiste mazi.Koitazw ena proswpo pou mexri ligo kairo prin mou itan agnwsto kai adiaforo kai twra einai san na koitazw enan kathrefti.

Kleinw ta matia moy kai vlepw to skoteino parelthon mou...ena parelthon pou apegnwsmena prospathousa na ksexasw kai na apofygw...ta anoigw kai vlepw pantou to proswpaki ths...ti vlepw mesa sto proswpo agnwstwn....akouw ti fwnh ths stis fwnes pou vgazei o kosmos...kleinw ta matia ksana kai niwthw to agigma ths....poso magiko einai afto...me kanei na anarwtieme kai na pw tin ekshs kouventa....:

"I would rather have had....one kiss from her lips....one breath of her hair...one touch from her hands.....than an eternity with out it...."

wow tha poun merikoi alla etsi einai....ti na tin kaneis tin aiwniwthta otan den eisai me afton pou thes....otan den exeis dipla sou ton anthrwpo sou ta panta miazoun thola kai skoteina...vrika ton anthrwpo mou...einai afto pou lene to allo mou miso alla monos mou kathomai edw ksana na eksigw.....giati arage...? kai allh mia aporeia geniete kai me vriskei ksana na dakrizw...oxi gia kati pou den eixa...gia kati pou exw...alla tin idia stigmh den to exw...

hi to all :)

kalispera filoi mou.to onoma mou den exei simasia apla mesa apo edw apofasisa na moirastw kapoies skepseis kai kapoia gegonota pou simadepsan ti zwh mou apo tin arxh mexri kai simera pou peira tin apofash na dimiourgisw afto to blog.

Htan to 2000 otan peira mia simantikh apofash na metakomisw apo tin Ellada kai na paw na vrw enan anthrwpo pou gia xronia itan ksexasmenos apo emena...enan anthrwpo pou distixws gegonota mou apagorefsan na mathw tin uparksh tou.Etsi loipon ksekinisa to makrino taksidi pros tin Amerikh na gnwrisw ton mpampa moy.perase enas xronos kai edeixnan ola teleia....magika me enan periergo tropo..otan to septevrh tou 2001 egine ena tragiko lathos...ena lathos pou gia merikous aksize alla gia merikous allous skotwse kai kserizwse mesa apo tin kardia tous oti agapousan.Nai itan tote pou 2 aeroplana epesan panw stous pyrgous sth Nea Yorkh kai enw oloi kathotan stin tv tous kai to xazevan egw vriskomoun liga xiliometra parapera kai pigena sth douleia tou mpampa....na dw to xwro pou doulevei....Ekeinh th stigmh misissa ta panta....to meros ton eafto moy,ton idio to Theo pou afise na ginei kati tetoio....girisa pisw stin Ellada me lavwmena ta ftera mou min mporontas na siniditopoihsw ti eixe ginei....Prospathontas na ksexasw anamesa se anthrwpous pou me xilious tropous moy to thimizan.Tote irthe sti zwh mou enas uperoxos anthrwpos (etsi pisteva toulaxiston mexri prosfata) kai alakse ta panta...itan ola osa eleipan apo ton eafto mou ekeinh th stigmh kai pistepsa distixws sta psemmata ths...koitazw to xtes kai vlepw 4,5 xronia sxeshs pou telika me odigisan sto misos...Misos gia enan anthrwpo pou mazi tou moirastika ta panta...

Diskolo tha poun polu alla egine...simvanta kai leptomeries den exoun simasia alla otan enas anthrwpos pou zeis ta panta mazi tou gia toso kairo kai se gnwrizei toso kala se ksexna apo th mia mera sthn allh....tote arxizeis na miseis pragmatika...Itan kalokairi otan peirame tin apofash na xwrisoume.Par'ola afta omws vriskomastan,gelousame kai klaigame parea...girisa sto Nhsaki opou megalwsa perimenontas na erthei kai afth meta apo 3 meres na eidothoume ksana.kai ksafnika....Xathike...xwris na pei tpt eksafanistike etsi apla gia na xtipisei meta apo liges meres to kinito moy kai na dw ena minima na leei...signwmh exeis dikio alla eimai kapou allou....kai na niwtheis ton kosmo olo na xanete ekeinh th stigmh katw apo ta podia sou....o kairos pernouse...Min mporontas na vrw pouthena ena stirigma,oute kan stin idia moy tin oikogeneia pou apo palia vasika itan ypo dialish strafika se alkool...strafika sto na kanw kako ston eafto moy mera para mera...misisa ola moy ta oneira..stamatisa ti douleia pou apo mikro paidi ekana kai me gemize san anthrwpo....epikoinwnisa me ena filaraki moy kai ton parakalesa na erthei ta xristougenna na kanoume giortes mazi...etsi gia na exw k egw kapoion dipla mou...na tsougkrisw ena potiri Jack Daniels...na exw kapoion na ksespasw kai na stamatisw na kanw kako ston eafto moy.....

Peire tin apofash o giwrgakis na erthei....Vriskomoun eksw ekeino to vrady otan to tilefwno mou xtipise kai apo mesa me rwtisan an eimai sigenhs tou Giwrgou...Oxi apantisa me mia pagwmenh fwnh....o kolitos tou eimai....tote moy eipan oti eixe ena troxaio....Pagwsa....emeina kolimenos ekei prospathontas gia akomh mia fora na katalavw to giati....giati aftos ekei panw na pernei oti agapaw....efyge o giwrgakis kai vriskete k aftos ekei psila na mas koitazei xamogelastos emas edw katw....tote....

Tote itan i stigmh pou pragmatika exasa olon ton kosmo...san na stamatise o xronos ekei gia mena...epapsa na pistevw se theous se thriskeies ,se agapes filies ....erwtes ....epapsa na pistevw se emena...ston eafto moy.kathe mera evriza to Theo gia oti sinevei...ton parakalousa na moy dwsei ena simadi oti me vlepei kai oti de me exei ksexasei...ksespousa panw mou kai evriska lyseis se lathos pragmata.den evlepa omws kamia antapokrish apo Afton ekei panw...

O kairos pernouse me emena na vadizw apo to kako sto xeirotero...apoksenonontas ton eafto mou apo kathe ti zwntano kai omorfo...Otan mia mera enas aggelos pou epsaxna psila ston ourano vrethike edw katw dipla mou apo to pouthena...Me ena vlemma sta matia katalava poia pragmatika einai...anoiksa to stoma moy kai milisa kai eniwsa san na tin kserw xronia...san na einai enas pragmatika dikos moy anthrwpos....sikwsa to kefali mou psila ston ourano kai Toy eipa ena megalo efxaristw.Mesa se 2 matakia eniwsa tin apoluth eftixia gia pragmatika prwth fora meta apo polla xronia....kai otan ta xeilh mas sinantithikan exasa kathe epafh me ton kosmo kai vrethika se enan allo magemeno kosmo opou eniwsa san ena mikro paidaki pou den to niazei se ti kosmo zei kai einai panta eftixismeno...dipla ths kathe moy problima fentazei toso da mikro....akougontas ti fwnoula ths einai san na akous ta poulia pou prohmnoun tin anoiksh....vlepontas ta yperoxa matakia ths niwtheis san na xanese sto aperanto galazio tou ouranou...Nai erwteftika....eixa papsei na pistevw se kati tetoio alla otan emeina monos mazi ths....otan me agaliase...eida pantou louloudia....apektisa ksana ena megalo xamogelo sto proswpo mou,arxisa na pistevw ksana kai na kanw oneira palu....kai to kalitero....eida mia antapokrish mesa se olo afto...to eniwsa opws niwthei enas stratiwths th sfaira pou diaperna th sarka tou....

Distixws omws gia akomh mia fora....palu h monaksia apodixtike kaliterh sintrofia....isws telika na einai grafto na meinw monos....me oneira mono....na zw se afton to magiko kosmo me monh sintrofia skepseis....tpt parapera...mexri ekei...isws afto na einai to mellon mou? den kserw...to thewrousa kapws diaforetiko...kai tote anarwtithika kai koitaksa ksana ekei psila anazitontas Afton....anoiksa to stoma mou kai eipa....Giati mou thn esteiles edw na me kanei kala enw den ginete na eimaste mazi?.....ena dakri kilaei sta matia mou kai anarwtieme....giati?

Einai toso omorfo na exeis ola afta mesa sou....na niwtheis ola afta kai na thes na ta vgaleis...na ta moirasteis me afth pou ksereis oti pragmatika ta aksizei...na ths prosfereis tin kardia sou aploxera kai enw ksereis oti tin thelei.....na distazei na tin parei...

tha stamatisw edw tis skepseis mou gia apopse....